Contributions to the tribute of Shane Kolburn Ladd

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Kennedy posted a condolence

Saturday, August 20, 2022

Hi dad, I just wanted to talk to you for a bit. I miss you a lot. Theres a lot of big things happening dad, and I cant tell you about them. I am in school to become a nurse, I have met the man of my dreams and I am marrying him. I think we are gonna be moving into and renting our first home around the time of your birthday. Nobody will tell you just how bad it hurts when you lose the one thing you think you could live without. I am sorry for not being the daughter to stop you and see you are still needed. I prayed that you'd see me and Savannah and realized we needed you . When in reality, we needed to come to you , not vice versa. After losing you, i feel like i lost a lot of my love for myself and others. I felt empty and drained and uninterested in life. it became grey, no matter how i saw it. I love you a lot dad, Everyone told me I would be given a sign showing that you are home, that you are with crazy grandma and grandpa and your little brother, but I haven't been given that sign yet. I hope you have found home and I hope you can see Savannah from where you are. I hope you heard of what I wish to become, a Hepatology Clinical Nurse Specialist. For your honor. I am going to become the very thing you needed so that I can change lives, like you did in your own way.I miss laughing until my side cramped, I haven't laughed that hard every since the last time I spent the night with you. Im afraid that part of me, got lost when I said goodbye to you. One thing I do to keep you in my life is making those baby pancakes every time I make pancakes. What I would do for one more weekend with you dad. I think Im going to start tying to you more, hoping for an answer back. I love you dad. Always have and Always will.